I know you are doing well there. But I really cant help but to think of you whenever Im alone. Maybe Im just lonely. Well, cant be helped can it? Ive been eating lunches alone and having study dates with myself. Its not that big a difference from last semester. but somehow it feels like this semester has been lonelier than ever. Sure, there are project mates, ive made new friends etc. But its just not the same. I miss last semester’s laughter, the jokes, the coffeeshop hangouts, the late nights and the crazy-anyhow blabber, the MANY calls we made to clarify a concept, a doubt, a question.
School sucks without you and the days are passing slower than ever.
i miss you.
Or maybe Im just sick of departures.
Sick of planes.
Sick of goodbyes.
I want to go back.
I know its not possible.
So I came here to rant.
Its not the same anymore. and I know I must move on.
So I will.
After saying what I want here to my heart’s content.
Guess Im feeling abit better already
Okay, nuff said. I will survive.
I really really miss you a lot.
Somehow grades dont matter that much anymore. I dont know why, but it really seems so trivial all of a sudden. Yes, I still want to do well, but sometimes its only a bonus. If i dont do as ideal, i dont get terribly sad over it as well. I think because i realsed that there is more to that. Sometimes working hard may not be the smartest way to get what you want.
argh i dont know what to say anymore.
im jst a little bewildered, lost, emotional, crazy, desperate, puzzled, amazed, relieved, and every little of other emotion i guess. or maybe none of it at all.
The key to Happiness?
Dont think so much. Dont Compare. Just Keep Calm and Trust Him.
What I’ve been telling myself everyday.
Will try to live by it.
i want to rant.
Is it possible to feel so sick of everything? So sick of the rat race, so sick of trying to get the optimal grades so that I cant get THE PERFECT JOB. So mentally exhausted with all the overflowing information. Maybe I just need a break. from MY life. Cos being me is just exhausting.
Today’s a really bad day. I fucked up big time. Full stop.
somehow i loled at this. HAHA
well.. maybe you’re right.
Im not good with people.
But its hard to think that people will like you after having gone through so many bad experiences.
Im a free spirit~
Have I experienced what its like to be at the top of the world, walking with wind in your hair? Of course. Have I experienced my lows in life? definitely.
For that, I should be more than contented.
You will remain a memory. I will still think of you once in a while and my heart will ache a little just to remind me of the stupid mistake I’ve once committed.
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